I is back.

Hello again, long lost friend.

I know, I haven't blogged in a while and that's not nice. Let's update:
1. Blake is still in my life, my crush on him has smoldered & only a little is still burning.
2. I have new friends. The drama with the others got to be to much & exotic girls are way better anyways.
3. I have really hard classes and hardly have anyother time...I should actually be doing homework right now.
4. Seniors are really hot.
-Dave. Wow. I thought I really liked this kid & I thought he liked me back. But I guess not. It was lust a first sight (on that night). My first encounter wasn't nice, he was a big, fat, jerk and he still is. Jo was right, he is a player and she knew she didn't like him for a reason.
-Andy Mulder. Cute Lunch Boy, that X finally saw! He is just on fire. But, he is a jerk sometimes, so that takes a little away from that. Brittany knows him, so that's a good thing.
-Brendan & Erik. They are just the 2 most rocking-est & hottest seniors. They're voices are amazing & the way they play the guitar makes me wish I was that shiny instrument.
-Kaitlin, Jenna, & Moose. I'm just really gonna miss these girls. They're all amazing people that I'm happy to call my friends. Kaitlin, I will still probably see. Jenna, is off to be a star in NYC. And I have no clue what's going on with Moose, but I hope it's good for her.
5. Friends can be found, even when things are going wrong. There is no need for a group of friends; "float on", in words of Modest Mouse. I have all sifferent kinds of friends and only a few are the same age as me. I love it.
6. Sometimes family can't be trusted. Mom messed everything up again. I really really really want to forgive her, but I can't. She tore that old wound back open again and I'm scared to re-live that. So, I'm choosing not to, for now. Choosy moms choose Jiff, Choosy girls choose Jelly.
7. Fights can always be resolved. Me and Lynda// are back, but not exclusively. She came over the other day, to return something & it was just like old times, except I'm not at blame for any of her (and that group's) problems. So, maybe reconciliation with ma maman is possible... we'll see. Also, the ethnics(family ones) and I hashed it out, but things are back to normal now... more signs that mama and I will be bon.
8. I will not be walked all over & no, Pier One does not sell me as an area rug. I'm thru with taking crap from people & I'm sorry English teacher if I'm not the "little miss" you thought I was. I have an opinion and I'm not taking random idiot stuff anymore. Get with it, get over it, or get out.
9. Next year is going to be harder. But with new challenges comes better teachers and more friends.
10. This is for good measure. I have nothing to put here. WAIT, yes I do. I'm going to be spending some time in the woods with the family... that actually might be fun. It's going to be all Henry David Thoreau, but with people and fun. But, books and philosophy will be packed in my bag.
11. This is throwing good measure off, but I forgot about Dave. Funny, Running, Floppy Haired, Sweet Heart, Cousin's-Ex, Dave. He's amazing & I think he might think the same about me. I really like this kid. And I can tell I do, because it's not a shallow looks thing this time... which was what every other liking I've had has been about. I think this is a new begining for me. Wow. And this is not Senior Dave, so hopefully the name is the only thing they have in common. Or I might have to cry.
12. This is for even numbers and more proven things. Girls like me can have sexy boyfriends. That talking teacher of mine, who is very similar to me, has and absolutely gorgeous boyfriend. There is hope! Even if his eyes are too wide.

Okay, nature and mathematics call.

Ciao Bella.
Xoxox.